Can’t you see I’m barely hanging on. I’m tired of pretending I’m happy, that I’m not in pain, and twinkling this fake persona. Can you hold onto me? Here I go again foolishly turning my back on you and placing the distance back. But I don’t think I have the strength anymore to keep pushing you away, I’m walking towards you drenching in fear. This ice queen tears have melted her soul and now the veil of coldness and care is no longer hidden, you can see through me. The hate I have for you was really just wanting you to not leave me alone in this melancholy lake of loss. Can you hold onto me? I wanted to give you everything and now we’re strangers. I wanted you to never give up on me, but I stabbed you. This feeling has me drinking and crawling to your room, but I can’t open the door. I miss you so much that it hurts. I thought you wanted to throw me away, but you’re crying yourself to sleep every night. This loneliness is bullet snowflakes shooting into my heart, am I dying? Be my furnace, and I will never make you cry again. You are my chemotherapy, you are the only one keeping me from giving up. I can’t be without you anymore, my emotions are raining down and the storm can’t be controlled. The flower petals are swaying with the wind and I cry “you are my home, so please hold onto me.”
